Frustrated And Ready To Give Up On Ld

I've been on this subreddit for awhile now id say atleast a year and a half and I used to keep a dream journal on my iPod that has over 20 entries. I can recall my dreams very vividly yet I can't become lucid. I've tried reality checks of looking at my watch periodically throughout the day whenever k can remember to do one but I never see/notice my watch in my dreams. I've tried WBTB and MILD with no luck. Last night I woke up at 4 and tried to WILD, felt my body go numb, yet I was completely conscious. It seemed like I just layed there for about 40 mins and when I checked the clock it was 630 and it was light out. This really frustrated me and I can never get past the hypnogogic images. I've heard SSILD works but I'm just so annoyed at this point I'm thinking of giving up.